I wish I knew where you went, how you are, if you're okay, if you think of me as desperately as I think of you.

I haven't been around lately, and I feel bad, because you may have wanted to talk to me. But I wasn't there. And now I pay the penalty in the form of your absence.

I hate it when you're away. It agonizes me and pains me to no end and all I could ever hope for is for you to return. I can think of nothing else.

I miss you, dear. So dearly.

So, so dearly.

Things I must get around to doing:

1. Make deviantID.

2. Make personal deviant icon. Angry red grows tiresome.

3. More deviations!

What the hell. I CANNOT believe myself. Most of all, I cannot believe all those things I said. I know I said them for a reason, but my god. No wonder no one liked me..all that whining when I should've just told him how I was feeling instead of writing about it in hopes that he read about it and care.

Which he NEVER did.

Man, what a crock all that was. I was basically dating myself for almost 5 months. And for what? Nothing!

Errk. Reading all those old journal entries on here..It just makes you realize all the stupid things.


Glad thats all over. Hell, I'm glad i have someone who cares now.

And you know what, I dont care what anyone says. I'm happy. For the first time in a long time, I'm unbelievably happy.

And god, it feels so good.